It hit me like a ton of bricks today on my commute home.... I really don't want to do this any more. That was the first epiphany. It was immediately followed by the second epiphany: I've lost my passion for this line of work.

And I'm not talking about burnout where I just don't feel like coding.... I'm mean serious passion loss... the kind that makes you go dig out the numbers to the local truck driving school.

Problem is, I don't know how to deal with that. Programming is all I really know. It's all I've ever done, since.... well, for the last 25+ years, let's say. And now I really don't want to do it any more.... Unfortunately, I have to keep doing it, I've got a family to support... if it were just me, I'd be cleaning out my desk tomorrow.

I didn't think this was possible....

Even now.... I feel like I'm wandering the VBF halls aimlessly...

-tg