Sadness or emptiness?

[InvisibleDuncan]

Originally posted by Jamagei
Duncan are you saying that you would rather live a life alone than have someone love you? or close to you? Have you experienced love or friendship. If you have not then you are the odd one not everyone else. If I lost any of my friends I would grieve for them, but be happy in the knowledge that we had good times together, experienced life together. I wouldn't trade that for the world.

I'm not saying anything like that, and I can't for the life of me work out how you arrived at that conclusion.

The question being advanced here is: is it better to be bored or unhappy? I have already stated that I am mostly happy. However, on the day that my brother was killed, I was extremely unhappy. I would gratefully have traded that experience for a bit of boredom. If I had been given the choice of having my brother die or sitting and watching a bit of daytime TV, I'd have chosen the TV like a shot. The death of my brother may have given me the chance to experience new and interesting emotions but - and here's my point - I didn't ****ing want them. Not at that price. Not at any price. They were/are not feelings that I'd recommend to anyone.

People who do savour that kind of experience are nothing but sociopaths.