Alright Simon
I do believe that we are enslaved by our own minds and that our minds interpret incomming information in a way that re-inforces our peception of reality and perhaps this is the same point you are making.
I feel both good and bad for this, for you, because i'm glad you understand me and even adopt my theories, or probably somone else Socrates maybe knew about this also but might never mentioned it, or is it me again then? It's so obvious that:
'The only thing we can know is that we know nothing'
That's the point, the contradiction, the fact that i'm not accepting it (yet) makes it possible for me to think it's impossible and so on... And the fact that nobody yet (or what am i really saying?) has accepted it out of i don't know how many centillion sentient beings (or is it just me?) for how many cumulatively centiollion milleniums makes it seem impossible to do it at all. Or is it really?

In near future, theyre going to get me brainwashed, my brains robbed from all crap, (because of me ordering to do it) and having me taught this over again, until i know this is how it is, this is what i am. I might not even then accept this. There going to be generations and generations again with brainwashed humans, theyre going to do tests, brainwave matrix controlling devices, theres going to be fast fast fast evolution in a new way of thinking, not biologically but digitally enhancing my capabilities of thinking singleminded and to concentrate on this project. Humanity wont be itself, it will evolve into a i don't know what to call it... The big huge database of millions of the best computers processing the thinking of accepting the contradiction. And is that even enough? It has to be because who am i without my environment? I'm vanishing into nothing. Is that the way? Complete extermination of the human race? Then give me time to think, give me someone who knows what i'm doing, thinking, give me someone who can qwestion me and say where i went wrong, but don't give someone to tell me what reality is.

I feel bad because I expect more interest in the issue, i feel there has to be some big argument going on for this to get anywhere, i feel like you need to hit me to see if i fall to the ground or stay intact.

Maybe it's just either too selfevidently stupid that nobody gets anything or rolls their eyes to achieve what is best for them, but in fact is a defense mechanism that is induced by the fear inside of us or maybe it's just such a selfevident paradox that it seems ridiculous to even try to accept it. Maybe we need more evidence for it? How do you find evidence for a paradox? I don't know, I don't know but we might find similarities in other issues, something that always points to this contradiction and then somehow can tie together a solid proof that this reality doesn't exist. That this is just logically impossible.