Ok Simon, I'll explain again.

Since there's no way to relate knowledge with reality but to define we assume that we know. You try to adapt to an environment in which you can function as a part, take a role, and also understand. It's not relevant to explain why you do, because that's seems natural to you. You are bound to use norms, you feel more safe with laws and definitions, you have a desire for consistent knowledge. This is maybe how and why your reality actually exist. Think about your dreams, who created them but your mind? Now think who created universe if not your mind again? Your desire to think and to understand builds up a world around you to interact with, some sort of solitaire game you play to keep yourself entertained for eternity.

Consistent knowledge might come in big packages, like science and religion, they function as manuals, as tools for you to understand something. They might satisfy your desire but as soon as they are inconsistent you begin to doubt if you should use them. These inconsistenses appears between packages more often because the packages are built to explain a certain scope of phenomenons. You decide to choose to which to rely on, you begin to sort out what knowledge you want to use, and you actively start to consider there is something called "reality", some sort of place where everything is consistent, because it just is. If you think something is real enough, it becomes real. In the process you actually forget what you really are, (maybe you were a god who had nothing else to think about) since that makes you feel uneasy. Or maybe this has always been your case, a strife for knowledge that also trapped you into restriction.

I just read trough what i wrote and i imagine you struggle getting my point again I decided not to rewrite it though. I'm diving a bit deeper... I hate psychology grrr...

You are a human, you see stuff, you wake up the morning clock ringing 6:30, eat breakfast, you go to work and talk to your friends, etc etc... (imagine i describe a regular day in your life) You assume all this happens because it's "selfevident" not because it's convenient to think this is probably what happens next. You've learned in school that 2+2=4, that Earth is flat even if it doesn't look flat. You might have learned that there's a God that takes care of you, that keeps track of everything. You understand, these two things can co-operate, they are consistent, but you can't directly verify that the earth is round because you haven't seen it yet, you haven't seen god yet. This is because what you percept with your eyes is usually more trustable, but then again sometimes you know it is a trap for your eyes, you look in your mirror and see another person looking at you, you know it's not how it is, you know that it's the light that you reflect. You build up an instinct to know what is "real". What isn't you won't accept, what doesn't seem to fit into the picture you doubt, what you think is reasonable is also probably right. etc etc.. You also make up rules of how to act on different situations, really complex rules, your social life, ethical and moral issues, everything to keep your mind occupied every day, in a whole lifetime.

Am I beginning to make sense now? Not yet? Almost? Ok back to philosophy

You have strong faith in something, you really believe that there is a God, or you really believe there is a computer in front of you since you can see it, touch it, pick it up and throw it out of the window , anything. It's absurd to say it's otherways, it's absurd to even think about it. What is selfevident is what you have so strong faith in that you take it as solid fact. You demand solid facts in a lot of issues, because solid facts makes you feel comfortable. you get confused, you get surprised when you are mistaken. You demand that there is solid ground under your feet -> there is solid ground under your feet, you demand that there is a sofa in the living room -> there is a sofa in the living room (don't think you can go demand that there is beer in the refrigerator because you "know" there isn't) In fact knowing that you don't know if there is or is not beer in the refrigerator makes it possible for both to be facts, you take faith in that there is a solid fact behind the issue, that there either is or is not beer in the refrigerator but that you can't be too sure, then you suddenly realize you bought beer yesterday, and immediately it becomes solid fact that there is beer in the refrigerator. You go and open it and voila! Solid fact! Congrats! Have a drink! In case you didn't remember you bought it you go check it out, and find the beer, your might think back and recover the memory that you bough the beer, you might get surprised that there is beer, you might notice that you haven't bought beer at all, (now I see that you think what I think you think what i'm thinking) in any case you can co-operate with it, there really is a way to assume Solid fact is behind something that might be or not be true. But what was solid fact again? YES! It was something you had very strong faith in.

Knowledge is power, knowledge is a more powerful tool than you can ever imagine, because it's what you imagine. YOU IMAGINE that knowledge can be applied as SOLID FACT. In other words, you take strong faith in some information (but this time i'm using other words for it) You EXTRAPOLATE the idea of having SOLID FACTS behind something to everything, and this you label REALITY. YOU IMAGINE that there is a REALITY where everything consists of SOLID FACTS by demanding that there has to be CONSISTENCY which in turn is a NORM for keeping you comfortable and SATISFIED as a HUMAN. Now you realize what a complex being you are, you've built up all of this yourself haven't you? You refer to your knowledge and say that it can't be true, that there are others around you that have affected you, that this knowledge comes from others, HUMANITY, the likes of you who try to collect SOLID FACTS to share with everyone. Makes sense doesn't it? You also demand that SOLID FACTS stay SOLID FACTS, you have had experience that something that you thought was real was prooven false. You define logics, you define a language to proove and to judge information and their relationships, you suddenly realize there isn't a way to proove everything... anything, that there isn't a way to retrieve SOLID FACT, how sad is that? you can't let this happen! You substitute this hole with the existance of AXIOMS which tells you that something is SELFEVIDENT. LOOK AT YOURSELF! You really struggle to deny what is even more selfevident! You're the most stupid being universe, you don't know anything at all! ARGH! How can this be true you say!

Ok, ok not many do come to this point, they are smart enough to avoid stepping on this dead spot. By introducing some reasonable level of ignorance and a buffer of knowledge to always keep loyal to you are safe. By "not caring" you can keep yourself satisfied, by having a huge selection of knowledge that applies on specific cases, on ranges of scopes, you effectively avoid stepping on the dead spot. Call it human stupidity, a very natural way to be content. You've restricted yourself from knowing everything, forcefully forgetting the absurd fact, that you are one lonesome being. Forcefully imaginating, restricting yourself from being left out from your world. Some people have a respect for death, some fear death. The same built in fear you have for being left out from your world. This fear is so deeply enclosed inside you that you don't know it exist most of the time, you keep it that way, you rather want to get hurt, and eventually die in this universe than returning to eternal lonelyness. But the barrier is really there, there is a mental filter that you can remove forcefully if you want, you can really "wake up" from this dream if you really want to. It's just a qwestion of time. It's just a qwestion of knowledge, if you seriosly become bored, tired of standing at this point, standing at the dead spot where you can see the whole universe from a bird perspective, that is a very unpleasant perspective, you know what you have to do, there is door behind you which says "exit" and you can leave this all behind. You look at me with fear in your eyes, or if you are smart enough you look at me with rolling eyes. Can't you get more crazy than this? Well if you doubt me, read this all over again, until you see this is how it is. This is reality, this is what you've been doing to yourself for you don't know how long.

Let me tell you that i'm the same person as you, i'm also human, i know how to act, to interact with my reality, to retrieve information to process it and to do my decisions. Only a half year ago I was totally lost, I was into some kind of "lowest point of my life" where everything seemed so meaningless and dry. I was ready to die any second. I wouldn't have hesitated to do that if I knew there was something. Time would heal my problem, and a half year passed but it only made me realize what I am.

Damn! This doesn't even fit into one post!