im 14 so im not exactly in the position for making donations...but i wish the best. all i can give is my advise, which comes in a strange way. my "advise" is this:

since the begining of time, humans have given things meaning that aren't there. they have named thing and percieved things as such, though they dont even exist to begin with. do you believe ur speakers make sound? they dont make sound, they make vibrations which is interperated in ur brain and basically gives u a certain sensation. we just call it sound, even tho it isn't. do u believe cold and hot exists? heat exists, u can measure how much heat, there is, but cold doesn't. cold just doens't exist. u cant measure cold, there is only a limit on how low the heat can be. colld is nothing. just a word. what about other things, like good and bad?

i dont feel like explaining this following thing, because i'd spent about a year just figuring everything about this out. but the basic idea is this:

everything you do, say, hear, see, etc. effects your mind permanantly. even if its something like u were walking down the street and you see a quater on the ground, then u keep walking. u may not realize it, and u may never kno how, but it permanantly effects you.

thats part of it
the next part is basically the same thing, but it effects every1 and everything in this entire world.

the short of it is that nothing is static. everything constantly changes. and everything you do...or dont do....effects the whole world. now look at the time, and look how many seconds have gone bye in your whole life. jsut imagine that. and imagine all the seconds that passed that you didn't do something good. now realize that all those seconds contribute to all the evil and killing and torture and everthing bad in this world. no second is wasted.

you can figure out how all this works by urself. but i warn u, to really really get all you can from this, it will take a long time and some serious thinking, where its just like you ignore everything else and decide firmly just to think about this.

im srry i cant do more. and btw my "advice" applies to every1, not just this topic.

please tell me if this helps and if you have anything to add.