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Parksie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm almost afraid to ask........Ian stole my lingerie and not only that he ate it. (Now what kind of behavior is that I ask you!) Ked and GR are both bummed out and Ian has turned into a theif.....what's your mood today???
Well, i guess i'm just talking to myself, selftheraphy used to work too :( i don't write poem when i'm saddened, but i listen to music and that still does help, i'm off good night everyone
Good night, Kedaman.
cya l8r ked
i write poetry and listen 2 music, it helps, ah well
cheer up man
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Originally posted by barrk
A little on the dark side for my taste so I'm not really the right person to ask. It's cool that you find an outlet for yourself in poetry though! Very cool!!!!! :cool:
WOW..poetry..poetry.. :rolleyes:Quote:
...his blade cuts like a knife
he'll be ****ing your wife
filling your mind with strife ...
Ked, i have had quite a few thing's on my mind for going on 4 years now. I am a very self critical person, always thinking about things for much longer than I should, IMO not attractive, about a stone and a half overweight,shy and haven't got layed for god knows how long.Quote:
Originally posted by kedaman
Problem for me is, I bounce down. If something makes you sad for a day or two, then it's probably very light in weight. If something makes me sad for a year or two, then it's so heavy i'm helpless, i can' t budge a burden of that weight.
I do think about these things quite alot, and there always bubbling around at the back of my mind as well as everything else. But the thing is, I've learnt to deal with them in a way that doesn't get me down that bad. Yes I have days when it all get's on top of me, but I've learn't slowly that there's feck all you can do about so it's much better just to get on with things and make the best out of what you've got. who know sometime soon I might get the courage to ask a few people out and not just think she's not interested :)
if u read the whole poem, that will make sense thinktank
anyway, not everyone will appreciate it, nevermind
Well, if you have no lingerie, then I'm considerably happier than I was :pQuote:
Originally posted by barrk
Parksie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm almost afraid to ask........Ian stole my lingerie and not only that he ate it. (Now what kind of behavior is that I ask you!) Ked and GR are both bummed out and Ian has turned into a theif.....what's your mood today???
Glad to hear I could help:rolleyes: :D
right that's me done for the night, time to dream of pasteur's new and a better job :)
Good night all :)
Night Ian!
Don't have too much fun with Katie's undies ;)
Oh no you don't Mr. Baker. You run that cute little butt down to the store and buy me some new lingerie first!!!!!!!!
if you think I'm running down the street completly naked at this time of night well you go another thing ............. oh alright, you twisted me arm ;)
It's good night from me
And it's goodnight grom him
:)
:eek: Good night sweetie!
ian, u think ur ugly??
<---------look at this bastard, oh wait, thats me!!
i mean i look like a terrorist and ive had some dodgy comments and looks come my way from the people in aberdeen since sep 11
well i'm back for the last time, i had to print the homework and printer was doing tricks, you know matrix printers ;)
Ian
you have probably noticed i'm happy at times here, very often if you read older post of mine in chitchat. Many of them are lies, i lie to myself all the time. I used to trick myself to think that i'm happy, if i could get enough small good details bombarding my mind i could keep the mood up, day after day, that used to work, it really did.
I get used to it though, which means the effect wore out, i got more and more sadder, and it had to take drastical changes for me to keep up the mood.
I listen to music 95% of my day, I can't live without music, I can'tlive without internet either, i was off 4 days something broke in the network neighborhood and i couldn't access internet at all, and that got me really down, because i hadn't things to do in life like you do. I don't have much money to spend on having fun outside, I am too shy to get in touch with girls, I harly ever speak to other guys, except my friend who lives in the same appartment, without him i would have taken my life long ago. Now that he lost his g/f who was unfaithful, he was down for a while but i noticed well he tried to undermine and cher up forcefully, i can only say the pain won't disappear for that sake.
We use to talk about things, and one night after a freaking long conversation i just concluded that i made up reasons for me being down, and tried to undermine them. Actually I really don't know what's bothering me, and that is ultimately my dilemma. I don't want to think myself sad by nature, but there has to be something that is wrong with me, so that i can fix it.
Good night.
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Originally posted by ghost ryder
ian, u think ur ugly??
<---------look at this bastard, oh wait, thats me!!
i mean i look like a terrorist and ive had some dodgy comments and looks come my way from the people in aberdeen since sep 11
you ARE one
deal with it
:)
u joke, but i have had some ****ED UP encounters coz i look like an afghani, some germans had a go at me in august, they apparantly dont like afghanis
and since the attack, i have had some dodgy looks and some nasty comments
why do u think i changed my nickname in my sig to "the most hated"?? thats what i am bro, the most hated mutha****a ghostryder
Sadness fro my youth
"Here I sit with gun in hand,
ready to end my life,
My loneliness, my sorrow,
an end to all my strife.
Im not afraid, to take the aim,
and pull and end it all.
Unleash my pain, from my brain,
and splatter it on the wall.
BANG !
It is quiet now, silent now,
the pain has finally ceased,
the lights go out, the pain is gone,
I have finally found my peace."
Pretty grusome for a 16 year old kid, huh? I keep it to remind myself each day of where I was, to appreciate where I am today.
You mean that i should be hopefull, I thought about that, it doesn't solve my dilemma.
btw i slept for 3 hours, that sucks. :(