thoughts...

happiness is what i seek
and pain is what i find
there is nowhere to run or hide
not even in my own mind
i think im blind
or at least im gettin there
i wish i was on death row
and strapped in the electric chair
i never believed when she said that she loved me
coz she is a queen and im a troll
and that is really plain to see
for her and me to be
would require plastic surgery
and a whole lotta money
but i had so much more to offer than just pounds and pence
i had my heart, my soul, my life
of course thats all in the past-tense
my heart it now in pieces swept under the rug of my life
can never have her because now shes gonna be his wife
her happiest night of her life is my darkest hour
i remember when i was young i screamed "i have the power"
but im not he-man im a weaker version
collapsing and dying would be a blessing is disguise
it would be wise
for me to stop getting my hopes up like something could happen
no expectations means no dissapointments
i should just stick to rappin
coz its a skill that i have mastered
im not plastered i dont drink
i sit back and think
reflect on my life
while i hold this sharp knife
contemplating coz i know that she is now his wife