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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:18 PM
#23761
Fanatic Member
too late, I'm now sitting here completly naked, but unfortunatley I'm still hungry
Yeah, well I'm gonna build my own lunar space lander! With blackjack aaaaannd Hookers! Actually, forget the space lander, and the blackjack. Ahhhh forget the whole thing!
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:18 PM
#23762
transcendental analytic
Thanks ghost ryder, sorry Dennis, i totally forgot you showed some symphathy but that was on last page.
Katie, I used to substitute the lack of a g/f with everything else you find in life, but now that there isn't much in life i feel the lack of a g/f 10 times worse
I hope you understand that my situation is worse than it looks
Use
writing software in C++ is like driving rivets into steel beam with a toothpick.
writing haskell makes your life easier:
reverse (p (6*9)) where p x|x==0=""|True=chr (48+z): p y where (y,z)=divMod x 13
To throw away OOP for low level languages is myopia, to keep OOP is hyperopia. To throw away OOP for a high level language is insight.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:20 PM
#23763
Hyperactive Member
Originally posted by Ianpbaker
too late, I'm now sitting here completly naked, but unfortunatley I'm still hungry
Damn it, Ian! Now what am I going to wear to the Halloween Party next week.....I guess I'll just have to go naked.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:22 PM
#23764
Hyperactive Member
Originally posted by kedaman
I hope you understand that my situation is worse than it looks
I don't understand why you rely on someone else to be happy. It is really up to you ultimately to decide whether your life is going to be happy or not. I'm not being unsympathetic, I just really don't understand why you need a g/f to be happy.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:23 PM
#23765
Junior Member
no problem ked
what did u think of the poem??
lyrical terrorism propaganda assassin
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:25 PM
#23766
Fanatic Member
Originally posted by barrk
Damn it, Ian! Now what am I going to wear to the Halloween Party next week.....I guess I'll just have to go naked.
Just say you are a missguided angel
Ked's.
I haven't had a girlfirend for probably over 3 years now, my life consist's of going to work, surfing the web and seing my friends at the weekend. that's it. Yes it occasionaly get's me down, but overall life is mundane for the majority of it and you just have to make the most of the things that are good
Yeah, well I'm gonna build my own lunar space lander! With blackjack aaaaannd Hookers! Actually, forget the space lander, and the blackjack. Ahhhh forget the whole thing!
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:29 PM
#23767
Hyperactive Member
Even if you have a significant other life is boring at times. You cannot rely upon that person to make you happy 24/7. You can't be expected to make them happy 24/7 either. Sometimes it is your responsiblity to make yourself happy. (no comments from the peanut gallery..you know what I mean!)
Last edited by barrk; Oct 17th, 2001 at 04:37 PM.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:32 PM
#23768
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:34 PM
#23769
Fanatic Member
Originally posted by ghost ryder
yeah katie, but sometimes, life just plain sucks
yes life does suck sometimes, you've got to take the rough with the smooth., if everything in life was easy, what would we as people have left to strive for ?
Yeah, well I'm gonna build my own lunar space lander! With blackjack aaaaannd Hookers! Actually, forget the space lander, and the blackjack. Ahhhh forget the whole thing!
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:36 PM
#23770
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:39 PM
#23771
transcendental analytic
Thats the problem Ian, I am both unhappy and alone well most of the time, thanks again GR and Dennis.
GR, i read it, and i think, it is just great.
I don't understand why you rely on someone else to be happy. It is really up to you ultimately to decide whether your life is going to be happy or not. I'm not being unsympathetic, I just really don't understand why you need a g/f to be happy.
no Katie, I don't like to be selfish, I know others have worse problems than me, and some will never get them solved. That puts me in a grey field where i can act happy, but at the end of day i will be saddened by the emptyness inside me that can't be hidden more than temporarily. I won't probably be much happier with a g/f i can see the back side of the coin in almost anything, but I have needs, and they don't disappear by doing stuff, they're fundamentally controlling my mood. I can't decide to be happy, if i force it, it will come back, and each time i do, the effect is weaker, now i'm down so much that i seldom can be happy more than for short moments
Use
writing software in C++ is like driving rivets into steel beam with a toothpick.
writing haskell makes your life easier:
reverse (p (6*9)) where p x|x==0=""|True=chr (48+z): p y where (y,z)=divMod x 13
To throw away OOP for low level languages is myopia, to keep OOP is hyperopia. To throw away OOP for a high level language is insight.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:40 PM
#23772
Junior Member
yeah, but at the moment, when i try, i fail and end up more depressed, i think i will feel better 2moro, hopefully
btw, what did u think of my poem?? (aside from the fact that u were disapointed coz it wasnt about my anatomy) lol
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:41 PM
#23773
transcendental analytic
Originally posted by Ianpbaker
yes life does suck sometimes, you've got to take the rough with the smooth., if everything in life was easy, what would we as people have left to strive for ?
That's so easy for you to say when you don't feel empty like me. I feel deep and constant depression, not like you who might feel temporary depression
Use
writing software in C++ is like driving rivets into steel beam with a toothpick.
writing haskell makes your life easier:
reverse (p (6*9)) where p x|x==0=""|True=chr (48+z): p y where (y,z)=divMod x 13
To throw away OOP for low level languages is myopia, to keep OOP is hyperopia. To throw away OOP for a high level language is insight.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:42 PM
#23774
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:42 PM
#23775
Hyperactive Member
I don't know what you want me to say. I am being as sympathetic as I can be while still not fully understanding your dilemma. Still you make it sound like I am wounding you somehow. I apologize if I am upsetting you. I just don't understand why you can't find a way to deal with this instead of searching for the answer in a girlfriend.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:44 PM
#23776
transcendental analytic
Use
writing software in C++ is like driving rivets into steel beam with a toothpick.
writing haskell makes your life easier:
reverse (p (6*9)) where p x|x==0=""|True=chr (48+z): p y where (y,z)=divMod x 13
To throw away OOP for low level languages is myopia, to keep OOP is hyperopia. To throw away OOP for a high level language is insight.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:44 PM
#23777
Hyperactive Member
Originally posted by ghost ryder
yeah, but at the moment, when i try, i fail and end up more depressed, i think i will feel better 2moro, hopefully
btw, what did u think of my poem?? (aside from the fact that u were disapointed coz it wasnt about my anatomy) lol
A little on the dark side for my taste so I'm not really the right person to ask. It's cool that you find an outlet for yourself in poetry though! Very cool!!!!!
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:46 PM
#23778
Monday Morning Lunatic
I refuse to tie my hands behind my back and hear somebody say "Bend Over, Boy, Because You Have It Coming To You".
-- Linus Torvalds
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:47 PM
#23779
transcendental analytic
Problem for me is, I bounce down. If something makes you sad for a day or two, then it's probably very light in weight. If something makes me sad for a year or two, then it's so heavy i'm helpless, i can' t budge a burden of that weight.
Use
writing software in C++ is like driving rivets into steel beam with a toothpick.
writing haskell makes your life easier:
reverse (p (6*9)) where p x|x==0=""|True=chr (48+z): p y where (y,z)=divMod x 13
To throw away OOP for low level languages is myopia, to keep OOP is hyperopia. To throw away OOP for a high level language is insight.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:47 PM
#23780
Junior Member
Originally posted by barrk
A little on the dark side for my taste so I'm not really the right person to ask. It's cool that you find an outlet for yourself in poetry though! Very cool!!!!!
thanks
not all my poetry is that dark, but it does actually help when i am depressed to write a poem, i mean, it beats suicide
lyrical terrorism propaganda assassin
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:49 PM
#23781
Hyperactive Member
Parksie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm almost afraid to ask........Ian stole my lingerie and not only that he ate it. (Now what kind of behavior is that I ask you!) Ked and GR are both bummed out and Ian has turned into a theif.....what's your mood today???
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:51 PM
#23782
transcendental analytic
Well, i guess i'm just talking to myself, selftheraphy used to work too i don't write poem when i'm saddened, but i listen to music and that still does help, i'm off good night everyone
Use
writing software in C++ is like driving rivets into steel beam with a toothpick.
writing haskell makes your life easier:
reverse (p (6*9)) where p x|x==0=""|True=chr (48+z): p y where (y,z)=divMod x 13
To throw away OOP for low level languages is myopia, to keep OOP is hyperopia. To throw away OOP for a high level language is insight.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:54 PM
#23783
Hyperactive Member
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:54 PM
#23784
Junior Member
cya l8r ked
i write poetry and listen 2 music, it helps, ah well
cheer up man
lyrical terrorism propaganda assassin
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:55 PM
#23785
Lively Member
Originally posted by barrk
A little on the dark side for my taste so I'm not really the right person to ask. It's cool that you find an outlet for yourself in poetry though! Very cool!!!!!
...his blade cuts like a knife
he'll be ****ing your wife
filling your mind with strife ...
WOW..poetry..poetry..
Marriage - is not a word, but a sentence.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:57 PM
#23786
Fanatic Member
Originally posted by kedaman
Problem for me is, I bounce down. If something makes you sad for a day or two, then it's probably very light in weight. If something makes me sad for a year or two, then it's so heavy i'm helpless, i can' t budge a burden of that weight.
Ked, i have had quite a few thing's on my mind for going on 4 years now. I am a very self critical person, always thinking about things for much longer than I should, IMO not attractive, about a stone and a half overweight,shy and haven't got layed for god knows how long.
I do think about these things quite alot, and there always bubbling around at the back of my mind as well as everything else. But the thing is, I've learnt to deal with them in a way that doesn't get me down that bad. Yes I have days when it all get's on top of me, but I've learn't slowly that there's feck all you can do about so it's much better just to get on with things and make the best out of what you've got. who know sometime soon I might get the courage to ask a few people out and not just think she's not interested
Yeah, well I'm gonna build my own lunar space lander! With blackjack aaaaannd Hookers! Actually, forget the space lander, and the blackjack. Ahhhh forget the whole thing!
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Oct 17th, 2001, 04:59 PM
#23787
Junior Member
if u read the whole poem, that will make sense thinktank
anyway, not everyone will appreciate it, nevermind
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:00 PM
#23788
Monday Morning Lunatic
Originally posted by barrk
Parksie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm almost afraid to ask........Ian stole my lingerie and not only that he ate it. (Now what kind of behavior is that I ask you!) Ked and GR are both bummed out and Ian has turned into a theif.....what's your mood today???
Well, if you have no lingerie, then I'm considerably happier than I was
I refuse to tie my hands behind my back and hear somebody say "Bend Over, Boy, Because You Have It Coming To You".
-- Linus Torvalds
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:07 PM
#23789
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:08 PM
#23790
Fanatic Member
right that's me done for the night, time to dream of pasteur's new and a better job
Good night all
Yeah, well I'm gonna build my own lunar space lander! With blackjack aaaaannd Hookers! Actually, forget the space lander, and the blackjack. Ahhhh forget the whole thing!
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:10 PM
#23791
Monday Morning Lunatic
Night Ian!
Don't have too much fun with Katie's undies
I refuse to tie my hands behind my back and hear somebody say "Bend Over, Boy, Because You Have It Coming To You".
-- Linus Torvalds
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:12 PM
#23792
Hyperactive Member
Oh no you don't Mr. Baker. You run that cute little butt down to the store and buy me some new lingerie first!!!!!!!!
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:18 PM
#23793
Fanatic Member
if you think I'm running down the street completly naked at this time of night well you go another thing ............. oh alright, you twisted me arm
It's good night from me
And it's goodnight grom him
Yeah, well I'm gonna build my own lunar space lander! With blackjack aaaaannd Hookers! Actually, forget the space lander, and the blackjack. Ahhhh forget the whole thing!
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:20 PM
#23794
Hyperactive Member
Good night sweetie!
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:20 PM
#23795
Junior Member
ian, u think ur ugly??
<---------look at this bastard, oh wait, thats me!!
i mean i look like a terrorist and ive had some dodgy comments and looks come my way from the people in aberdeen since sep 11
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:23 PM
#23796
transcendental analytic
well i'm back for the last time, i had to print the homework and printer was doing tricks, you know matrix printers
Ian
you have probably noticed i'm happy at times here, very often if you read older post of mine in chitchat. Many of them are lies, i lie to myself all the time. I used to trick myself to think that i'm happy, if i could get enough small good details bombarding my mind i could keep the mood up, day after day, that used to work, it really did.
I get used to it though, which means the effect wore out, i got more and more sadder, and it had to take drastical changes for me to keep up the mood.
I listen to music 95% of my day, I can't live without music, I can'tlive without internet either, i was off 4 days something broke in the network neighborhood and i couldn't access internet at all, and that got me really down, because i hadn't things to do in life like you do. I don't have much money to spend on having fun outside, I am too shy to get in touch with girls, I harly ever speak to other guys, except my friend who lives in the same appartment, without him i would have taken my life long ago. Now that he lost his g/f who was unfaithful, he was down for a while but i noticed well he tried to undermine and cher up forcefully, i can only say the pain won't disappear for that sake.
We use to talk about things, and one night after a freaking long conversation i just concluded that i made up reasons for me being down, and tried to undermine them. Actually I really don't know what's bothering me, and that is ultimately my dilemma. I don't want to think myself sad by nature, but there has to be something that is wrong with me, so that i can fix it.
Good night.
Use
writing software in C++ is like driving rivets into steel beam with a toothpick.
writing haskell makes your life easier:
reverse (p (6*9)) where p x|x==0=""|True=chr (48+z): p y where (y,z)=divMod x 13
To throw away OOP for low level languages is myopia, to keep OOP is hyperopia. To throw away OOP for a high level language is insight.
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:25 PM
#23797
Frenzied Member
Originally posted by ghost ryder
ian, u think ur ugly??
<---------look at this bastard, oh wait, thats me!!
i mean i look like a terrorist and ive had some dodgy comments and looks come my way from the people in aberdeen since sep 11
look?
you ARE one
deal with it
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Oct 17th, 2001, 05:28 PM
#23798
Junior Member
u joke, but i have had some ****ED UP encounters coz i look like an afghani, some germans had a go at me in august, they apparantly dont like afghanis
and since the attack, i have had some dodgy looks and some nasty comments
why do u think i changed my nickname in my sig to "the most hated"?? thats what i am bro, the most hated mutha****a ghostryder
lyrical terrorism propaganda assassin
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Oct 17th, 2001, 09:59 PM
#23799
PowerPoster
Well
Sadness fro my youth
"Here I sit with gun in hand,
ready to end my life,
My loneliness, my sorrow,
an end to all my strife.
Im not afraid, to take the aim,
and pull and end it all.
Unleash my pain, from my brain,
and splatter it on the wall.
BANG !
It is quiet now, silent now,
the pain has finally ceased,
the lights go out, the pain is gone,
I have finally found my peace."
Pretty grusome for a 16 year old kid, huh? I keep it to remind myself each day of where I was, to appreciate where I am today.
Remaining quiet down here !!!
BRAD HAS GIVEN ME THE ULTIMATIVE. I have chosen to stay....
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Oct 17th, 2001, 11:46 PM
#23800
transcendental analytic
You mean that i should be hopefull, I thought about that, it doesn't solve my dilemma.
btw i slept for 3 hours, that sucks.
Use
writing software in C++ is like driving rivets into steel beam with a toothpick.
writing haskell makes your life easier:
reverse (p (6*9)) where p x|x==0=""|True=chr (48+z): p y where (y,z)=divMod x 13
To throw away OOP for low level languages is myopia, to keep OOP is hyperopia. To throw away OOP for a high level language is insight.
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